Damages
by Bazhe
Paperback:
307 pages
Publisher:
iUniverse Star; (January 5, 2004)
ISBN:
0595297145
I
beg your indulgence for beginning this review in the first person, but
I’ve just finished reading Bazhe’s document, Damages, and I can’t help
myself. I’m calling this autobiography a “document,” because it not
only documents the author’s early life, but it also documents a
behind-the-scenes view of the dissolution of Yugoslavia, and the
“underground” nature of the GLBT community there, while artfully
comparing American society to society in eastern Europe, most notably
former Yugoslavia. The caveat at the beginning of the book states that
this is a true story, but some of the names and circumstances have been
modified to protect the identities of some of the characters. I’m glad
they didn’t say that it was to protect the “innocent.” No one seems to
be “innocent” in this book.
The
story begins with the death of Bazhe’s cruel father, a retired
communist official, and Bazhe returns to the Macedonian province in
Yugoslavia to visit his mother. During his visit, he discovers that his
beloved adoptive mother is not well. Eventually, she consents to seeing
a doctor. Bazhe nurses her in her home, while finally locating his
biological mother. During their first meeting, a secretive week, Bazhe
reveals to his birth mother, and his readers, his painful, abusive, and
lonely childhood, with a significant window of real happiness.
I
identified with Bazhe in many ways, while in the end I didn’t know
whether to envy or pity him. Finally, I found myself counting my own
blessings. While losing his own innocence at a tender age, he is forced
to create his own world. His striking good looks are both a blessing
and a curse. Bazhe brilliantly tells stories of his growing up in a
world that he knows will damn him. The stories interweave to develop in
him the strength that he will need to survive. There is great maturity
here. There is incredible happiness as well as heartbreaking sadness in
this man’s life, and he comes out of it as a survivor. A survivor of
the damages that make him what he is.
The
real danger of baring your soul as Bazhe has done, is that readers can
end up feeling that they know the author, well. In this case, I feel
that Bazhe has kept some of his most private thoughts to himself, while
sharing a great deal of both joy and sorrow. While the book could use a
better job of editing, I cannot fault the author, especially since
English (the American version) is his sixth language. This book is
beautifully written and reads smoothly. He does an excellent job of
moving the story along, and holding the reader’s attention, even though
this is a fairly long book.
In
spite of its length, the romantic in me would like to have read more of
the author’s relationship with his partner, Fred. He states that Fred
loves him, and I’m sure he loves Fred, but there must be a solid
relationship there for them to endure the lengthy separations that
occur. This must be one area that Bazhe decided to keep something to
himself. Who could blame him?
If
you’re ready for a real-life story of a very difficult time in world
history, as well as looking into some very happy and very sad windows
into a rebel's life, by all means, this is an excellent book for you.
You’ll find it a tremendous surprise– A tremendously good surprise.
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